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Sunday, March 05, 2006

Sun, 05 Mar 2006 19:46:11 GMT

Tonight I'd rather be in love
rather it was you flowing through my blood
scraping through my veins, my everything
and you cling to every thread
that clings to me

I live in notes and photographs
and everything I'm holding back
but you're the words that weren't enough
you remind me of a song I used to love

I couldn't call you if I wanted
my fingers couldn't work if they tried
they're so sore from keeping crossed
and tracing over cuts on my worthless arms
if I said "I hated the feeling" it would be a lie

I live in notes and photographs
and everything I'm holding back
but you're the words that weren't enough
you remind me of a song I used to love

I live in notes and photographs
and everything I'm holding back
but you're the words that weren't enough
you remind me of a song I used to love

you remind me of a song I used to love

Saturday, February 04, 2006

Sat, 04 Feb 2006 20:14:04 GMT

we're amazing

Sunday, January 29, 2006

Sun, 29 Jan 2006 03:14:08 GMT

as of right now

i'm applying at cvs downtown

kasi is getting me the job :)

&&&&&& my dad is buying a truck

my mom gets his mazda

and i get the tarus :)

plusssssss

my liscense within 2 months

oh sjeannette...if only i was there to share all this with you in person

i'm sorry abotu tonight

i love love love love you X infin

<3 ab

Friday, January 27, 2006

Fri, 27 Jan 2006 23:04:36 GMT

i was reading through our old entries

and i seriously cried like the bitch i am

i miss us

<3 ab

Friday, January 27, 2006

Fri, 27 Jan 2006 18:53:40 GMT

NEW XANGA..?

"White Flag"

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you,
Or tell you that.
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it
where's the sense in that?

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess and
destruction to come back again
And I caused nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over"
then I'm sure that that makes sense

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

And when we meet
Which I'm sure we will
All that was there
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on....

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

Friday, January 27, 2006

Fri, 27 Jan 2006 01:03:40 GMT

well, i shouldn't say anything.
ever again. idk.
i feel like i did the wrong thing.
but i don't feel bad.
i was just being honest.

Thursday, January 26, 2006

Thu, 26 Jan 2006 21:02:38 GMT

i'm slowly regaining sanity... and strength.
yeah... it's gonna be fine.
thank you. thank you. thank you. <3
and it's nice to talk to you again, christian.
and it's just been weird lately.

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

Wed, 25 Jan 2006 22:37:19 GMT

man

i seriously miss sarahjeannette
i feel like my right arm is cut off
and i'm left hanging

christian and i are good
he cares about me
he makes me smile on those days when nothing seems to go right
he's wonderful
i love him

<3 a-fucking-b

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

Wed, 25 Jan 2006 01:42:07 GMT

so yeah... i was depressed for most of the day today because someone played "wouldn't it be nice" by the beach boys on piano when i was sitting in the chorus room with some new friends and i started singing with it then remembered what the song used to mean to me. i can't listen to the beach boys anymore. it hurts.
but then erin--who just got engaged!--cheered me up at work... and i only got 8 dollars in tips for my 3 hours there. it's okay. i close with her twice this week. hell yeah. i love that girl... she has no clue what she did for me.

sjeannette

Tuesday, January 24, 2006

Tue, 24 Jan 2006 22:55:20 GMT

Cigars in the summertime under the sky by the light
I can feel you read my mind
I can see it in your eyes under the moon as it plays
like music every line
There's a rug with bleeding dye under the fan in the room
Where the passions burning high by the chair
with the leopard skin under the light
It's always Penny and me tonight

On the plane step up with both my feet
Riding in seat number 3 on a flight to NYC
Got my bean in a coffee cup next to my seat
Catch the view and another good book to read
Sitting at home over the friendly skies
Missing her eyes
It's always Penny and me tonight

Cause Penny and me like to roll the windows down
Turn the radio up, push the pedal to the ground
And Penny and me like to gaze at starry skies
Close our eyes, pretend to fly
It's always Penny and me tonight

Staring at a million city lights
But it's still Penny and I all alone beneath the sky
Feel the wind brushing slowly by
If I could soar I'd try to take these wings and fly
Away to where the leaves turn red
But no matter where I am instead
Singing along to feeling alright
Or making it by under pink moonlight
It's always Penny and me tonight

Cause Penny and me like to roll the windows down
Turn the radio up, push the pedal to the ground
And Penny and me like to gaze at starry skies
Close our eyes, pretend to fly
It's always Penny and me tonight

Penny likes to get away and drown her pain in lemonade
Penny dreams of rainy days and nights up late by the fireplace
And aimless conversations about the better days

Singing along to feeling alright, yeah
Or making it by under pink moonlight
It's always Penny and me tonight

Cause Penny and me like to roll the windows down
Turn the radio up, push the pedal to the ground
And Penny and me like to gaze at starry skies
Close our eyes pretend to fly
It's always Penny and me tonight

Penny and me tonight
Penny and me tonight
Penny and me tonight